“I would have fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.” Psalm 27: 13 (King James Version)
As a matter of fact I had fainted (Psalm 27: 13, American Standard Version).
I lost confidence, my strength, my consciousness of who You are.
I was knocked out. Down for the count. Tired. I was weak. I had messed up. I had given up.
But I believed. I believe.
Believe: to accept something as true, genuine or real; to have a firm conviction as to the goodness, efficacy or ability of something. (Webster’s Dictionary)
Not in myself. Not in my power or might. But in You.
I believe in God. The Great I AM. The Maker of Heaven and Earth. Jehovah Jirah, my provider. Jehovah Shalom, my peace. The Ancient of Days. The Lord God Almighty. The Alpha and Omega. The Beginning and the End. My Rock and my salvation. The lover of my soul. My creator who knit me together in my mother’s womb. My God who counts the number of hairs on my head and sees my thoughts afar off.
The God who sees me. The God who knows me. The God who knows the plans He has for me, plans to give me a future and a hope. The God who takes care of me.
I gave up. I quit. I couldn’t take it, make it or do it. I didn’t have the capability, ability or capacity to achieve my dream. I still don’t.
I would have despaired (Psalm 27: 13, New American Standard Bible)
Despair: complete loss or absence of hope.
But I have confidence in You. My hope is in You.
My success and significance are in Your Son, Jesus Christ.
“I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.” Psalm 27:13 (New International Version)
Before I close my eyes on this earth, You will fulfill the purpose you have for my life. You are good and your mercies endureth forever. Because I am also confident (sure, certain, secure, positive) of this: that he that began a good work in me will carry it on to completion. (Philippians 1:6)
I have already seen your goodness. Your protection. Your provision. Your love.
I see it on the cross. A King on a tree, dying for me. An empty tomb. Resurrection power. Your Holy Spirit and still small voice. Your miracles every day. Your discernment and direction.
Your Word speaking to me:
“The Lord is faithful to all his promises and loving toward all he has made.” Psalm 145:13 (New International Version)
“And let us not be weary in well-doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.” Galatians 6:9 (American Standard Version)
“But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31 (King James Version)
“Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.” Psalm 27:14 (King James Version)
Your word to me: Don’t give up. (Monica’s Modern English Translation)